i am getting from bad to worse. initially when this school term started and i was still unused to all the traveling, i still make it a point to go to school and attend all my lessons. but it is only week 4 now and i am beginning to miss as much lessons as i please.

just yesterday, i overslept and missed 90% of the 0830 lecture.

today i purposely miss the 0830 lecture so that i can have 2 more hrs of sleep. i then attended the tutorial after that and met ZJ for lunch. after eating, i went hall and took a nap meaning to wake up for the next tutorial 3 hrs later. but when my alarm clock rang, it was stormy outside. the weather was just too nice to sleep in. i would be crazy to reject the bed and brave the rain to go lesson. that's why i continue to sleep. i believe anyone in their right mind would do what i did. [despite Huiqi and Pamela calling me pig...]

i wish for repent. bless me if i ever try to miss lesson again...

the happiness and sadness thing i mentioned in the previous post... I'm calling it the Rollercoaster of Emotions. To: Dumbo, thanks for riding it with me...

pam recently mentioned something that i thought was very true...

the more happiness you get
the more sadness you get

it is not contradicting at all. when something matters to you, you can become very happy easily, and because it matters so much, you get upset easily too.

maybe some things don't matter as much to you, but they are not little things to me. i think i need something but i don't know what is it...

though everyone got their fair share of ups and downs. recently feeling somewhat empty. might be because of the excessive stoning during travel to and from school... too much time to think too many unwanted thoughts... too many things that happened to make me feel more empty...

i need much much more reassurance.... which I'm afraid will never come it came.

this guy is hot and sweet!!!

sweet? read "the sweetest thing he's ever done".

hot? look at his arms, chest and abs... wooo~ yum yum!!

tsk tsk... MR YAO learn from him lar... (the sweet part only cos i like tum tum)

happen to know of this dude from school camp (who also kena me pull prank) who thinks that because he spends a lot on his ex, he is showing how much he dote on her. it's wrong, totally wrong!!!